I have many regrets in my life that I used to wish I didn't have. Things that I have done and have been done to me. Today..for some reason I can accept them. It's the only choice I have because unless I can invent a time machine, there is no way I can change what they are. So I am not going to call them regrets but pieces to the puzzle. They are what make up who I am and lead me to where I'm going. Pieces to my puzzle are already cut out..God has already planned what he wants me to do and who I am to be. I pick my paths and make the choices along the way hopefully now following the path that God wants me to. So the pictures on each piece is not yet decided until I get there. Some of them have nothing on them..yet...all in due time.
I can safely say that those past experiences have molded me into who I am and have given me a better perspective on how I want to go on in my life. They are choices that I didn't want to make or wish I had not made then, now that I look back at them. This past Sunday during church, our Pastor was giving his pastoral prayer and it was as if he read my heart. He spoke about some people dealing with the past and having a hard time right now. It really helped me to let go of those things. I had been having a hard time accepting those "experiences" and God was telling me through him that it was ok to let go. That my sins were forgiven and to not let them hold me back.
What a relief I've had since Sunday. It was like a weight was lifted off my chest. Knowing that God has forgiven me allows me to forgive myself.
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