Loving

Sweet, uninhibited hugs surround my side. Arms too short to reach up higher. A voice whispering " I love you mommy". Knowing it's all for me.

Leaning down to embrace the arms that are reaching for more. A tender moment. A moment repeated several times every day.

"Mommy, can you push the swing? Just eight times. Five times?" Gently giving the big push. Starting the momentum until a new push is needed. Running late to work to enjoy those moments.

It's all worth it.

Because I know all too soon that they will be memories... stored in my mind. They will come farther between. 

My heart aches at the thought. I will embrace the hugs longer. Cherish the ten kisses given to me.

All too soon, this to will pass.

Why can't they be little forever. 

Rocking the Bump

A mother's love is like no other

Unconditionally loving the new life inside of you
Rubbing my belly and your response to me with a soft kick
Feeling you move for the first time brings tears of joy to my eyes
Hearing your heartbeat and it is forever captured into my heart
When we meet face to face for the first time
it is as I have known you the whole time
We have a connection
a bond
We are mother and child
And nothing can ever take that away.

Writer's Workshop-There you Are

There you are in the early light of day

There you are in the quiet words I pray
I've been blessed by the simple happiness
Of the perfect love we've made

Every time I turn around
When I'm lost and when I'm found
Like an angel standing guard
There you are

Every time I take a breath and when I forget to breathe
You're watching over me there you are
When I'm looking for the light in the middle of the night
Searching for the brightest star
There you are

There you are standing in a crowded room
There you are the earth and I'm the moon
My desire is to stand by the fire
That burns inside of you

Every time I turn around
When I'm lost and when I'm found
Like an angel standing guard
There you are

Every time I take a breath and when I forget to breathe
You're watching over me there you are
When I'm looking for the light in the middle of the night
Searching for the brightest star
There you are

When i'm looking for the light in the middle of the night
Searching for the brightest star
There you are

There you are
There you are

There You Are by Martina McBride

I'm linking up with Mama Kat this week and I chose prompt 5, a song with significance. I chose my wedding song, because it brings back so many memories to me. This year I will have been married to my significant other for 10 years! Thank you hubs for being there for the good, the bad, the ugly and everything in between.

What I would do for you

I love my kids more than most anything in the world. The moment that they were placed upon my breast after they entered this world, an undeniable bond was formed.

In my heart I knew that I would do anything for them that was humanly possible to protect them, love them and care for them. It was a secret, silent mother's promise to them that I made in my heart.

I found this poem that I wanted to share and one day I hope to share with them.

What I Would Do For You
© Jayne Sena
I would do just about anything you'd ask,
For you there's nothing I wouldn't do, there's no such task.

I would walk without my shoes to the end of the Earth,
I would give up anything I had to, to teach you self worth.

I would hold your hand every minute of every day,
But I won't because I know you need to find your own way.

I would surely bear the heartache of your first love that's real,
Even though I can't, I will naturally feel as you feel.

I would sell my soul if it would keep you happy forever,
I would give my right arm to keep us forever together.

I would run a hundred miles up-hill in the rain,
Just to guarantee that you will never feel pain.

I would laugh with you even if I was sad,
I will give you a smile even if I'm mad.

I can only accept your mistakes with a grin on my face,
I will guide you in correcting them, but at your own pace.

I will guide you through life, as this world can get quite wild,
Just don't you ever forget that you will always be my child.

Source: What I Would Do For You!, Mother Poems http://www.familyfriendpoems.com/family/poetry.asp?poem=1474#ixzz1FbB4wVvD

Thank God for the Blessings

There's nothing cuter than a little 3 year old boy who just got
out of the bath tub wearing a froggy hooded towel.

I love my little man who is such a ham.
This little boy who warms my heart every night
when he wants to be such a big boy and try and wash his own hair.
Even after I have suds-ed his head and rinsed him clean
then I find him squeezing shampoo into the tub.

I just love his sweet smile and giggles
when I try to take his photos.
Thank you Lord for blessing me with this sweet little boy.

Where did 3 years go?

Little E

I've been thinking about the day you were born
since we are approaching your birthday in eleven days.
I started thinking about it on July 1st because it was the day
in 2007 when I had my first false alarm with you.
I thought I was going into labor and we
went to the hospital only to be sent home empty handed.
I was excited and nervous and wished you were coming home with
us not in my womb but in my arms.
I have noticed these past few weeks how much
you have grown this past year.
You are such a smart little boy and you never cease to amaze
me with your knowledge and how much going from
a 2 year old to a 3 year old distinguishes
the change from toddler hood.
I am beginning to miss that you don't need my help
as often and you can be asked to do a task
and you will willingly respond for me.

I am so looking forward to celebrating YOUR day.
You are so cute about your party and you
are so involved in the workings of it.
Having a little boy was one of the best things that our God
gave me.
I thank my lucky stars that he gave me you.

Bittersweet

Today I went to my little girl's end of the school year
after school program talent show. She and her friends performed
to Who Let the Dogs Out?
After the program I took this photo of her.
I can't believe how much my little girl is growing up.

Every day she is becoming a little lady, getting closer
to becoming that child that doesn't need mommy.
I noticed it today after her group was off the stage.
My mother and I sat and watched the rest of the groups
perform their part. Last year Miss K shyly sat next to us.
This year the seat next to me was empty.
My little girl joined her friends near the bottom
of the stage watching their friends.
My little girl is growing up.
This is bittersweet.

Mother's Day Mania

Day 4 of Mother's Day Mania with Mama M at My Little Life is off with only one day left. Head on over to read what other momma's are doing today!


Today's theme is what do you enjoy most about being a mother...or...have you had an embarrassing mom moment?

What do I enjoy most about being a mom..

♥The unconditional love, everyday, no matter what is going on.

♥That this little person is something that was created because of the love between my husband and myself.

♥That God has blessed me to be the protector, care giver, shoulder to cry on, booboo kisser, hero, arms to hold and hug everyday

♥The quiet moments when we're sitting on the couch just staring at the tv. I steal a moment to look at their sweet faces.

♥Holding hands when we cross the road

♥When my child reminds me that we need to say the blessing for dinner.... at the restaurant.

♥When they beg me to read another bedtime story and they pile on my lap and turn the pages while I read the story.

♥Scaring the "monsters" with flashlights and shooting them with nerf guns to make sure everyone sleeps safe and sound.

♥The laughter and giggles, the deep belly laughs. The laughs that make you lose your breath.

Heartbreaker

This sweet little face made his daddy upset tonight. He asked for mommy repeatedly when daddy was trying to bathe him. Lots of crying and tears.
When it came to brushing teeth.. he put his hands in his mouth and refused to let daddy do it. Daddy got upset and said "go get your mommy then". That little boy came running to my lap where I sat trying to nurse a sore neck. He climbed his snotty nose self into my arms. What can I say? I've got an effect on him. Is he a momma's boy? Maybe.
Does he have me wrapped around his little finger? It's possible.
But who does his heart belong to when mommy puts him into timeout for bad behavior? DADDY.
Enough said.

Top 3 Thursday-Ages of Ages

It's time for this Thursday's edition of Top 3 Thursday. If you haven't ever played along, today is a good time to start. Elizabeth over at Confessions From a Working Mom is having a Birthday blog fest all week in honor of her Birthday but if you join in today's blog hop you can enter in TWO awesome giveaways!!

What are your Top 3 favorite ages?
(or, your Top 3 favorite ages for your kids?)

3. 17, I was a senior in high school, dating my high school sweetheart (who is now my husband) and I was going to be graduating that year. Life was carefree. No worries. Just me, my boyfriend, my high school friends and the beach. Life was good.

2. 20, Not 21!! Haha. I had a few friends where I worked at the time who were over 21 so we used to go clubbing on Friday and Saturday nights every week. They bought me drinks and we danced until the wee hours of the night. My boyfriend (DH) and I were not in a relationship at the time, we were on a break. So I was single for the first time since high school.


1. 25, I was engaged to my husband to be, we were planning our wedding and planning to live together. I was in the time of my life. I was a newlywed and got to experience my first cruise for my honeymoon and I went out of the country for the very first time and it was amazing! I had never traveled that far before. And I was finally not living under my parent's roof and supervision. How's that for one year in my life!

Why?- Pour Your Heart Out

I wanted to thank everyone who read my post for Pour Your Heart Out last week and was so supportive and genuinely concerned about my little girl's well being. It's tough sometimes to spill the hard stuff and you worry about what people think about you. So this week I am not pouring so much about me.
This Wednesday as I have been doing, I am joining my blog friend Shell over at Things I Can't Say with her weekly meme Pour Your Heart Out.


Last year, when my friend told all of her friends that the baby she was carrying had a life threatening condition I was in shock. Here she was 30 weeks pregnant with her second child, a baby girl, and they find out that the baby has a Diaphragmatic Hernia during a regular ultrasound visit. Knowing this ahead of time before giving birth gave the baby a better chance of living since she would now be delivered via C-section in a neonatal hospital. A few weeks before the scheduled delivery of Angel, my friend's husband S was in a serious motorcycle accident. By the grace of God S lived but endeared many surgeries to save his leg. As if this family wasn't already going through enough, now that.
Angel was born on Oct 13, 2008 at Winnie Palmer Hospital. She was stable and was immediately placed on machines to assist her breathing. Days after birth she went through her first of six surgeries to correct the hernia and many other heart complications. On March 13, 2009 baby Angel gave up her fight and joined Jesus in Heaven.

I wasn't my friend's closest friend but during this time of her life we became close. Those of us who were there for them through the thick and thin and even in between. We were there. Through the triumphs and downfalls.
By reading my friend's MySpace blogs you would think that this really did bring them closer to God. It brought many of us to God maybe not for the reasons that he expected or maybe he did.? But I questioned God. Why? Why did it happen? What was his reason? Whose test was this? I believe that he allows things to happen for reasons that we do not understand. He could have taken her the day she was born but he let her stay here for her parents. Would the outcome have changed if she never took a breath of life?
But I don't think he expected the result that is now. During Angel's hospitalization they regularly attended church, asking for prayers and praying to God for healing. Now? You won't find them in church. I know that you don't have to go to church to praise God or believe in God but they don't live a very Christlike life. I LOVE my friend dearly and I guess I just turn the other cheek when they should be doing better. I can't turn my back on them.
I'm holding onto the hope that by setting a good example of where they should be spiritually that maybe it will change. I give up having a good time on Saturday nights with them because God is more important and I need to go to church. But is that selfish? Is it really showing them anything? It probably makes them think I'm a snob. Who knows. All I know is that whatever God's purpose, I'm still questioning the motive.