Shame on you

You know the saying hurt me once, shame on you, hurt me twice, shame on me. Well shame on me. I try to overlook the bad things, the stuff that goes on that bothers me. No one is perfect, so you can't always pick people apart. Everyone has their faults.

But I'm tired of always giving in. Being the nice person and not saying what I really feel. I guess I figure if I don't say anything, then I can save the friendship. Because if I tell her how I really feel then the friendship is over. What's the point???

Why does it matter? At this point I'm tired of getting let down.

After telling me that she and her family would be coming to Little E's party and the day before, after I've already bought all the food and gift bags for the kids, she tells me. I knew it was coming.

We were chatting online and she asks me to call her. I had some family visiting so she asked me to call after they left. I had time to mull it over in my head before calling and figured she was bailing.

Sure as the world, she did. And the infamous line I know you're going to be upset with me, and I understand. Bullshit!
Do you really understand?! The same woman who complains about people doing rude things. Inconsiderate things. Well, I'd like to tell her that she falls right into that category.

I thought she was different.

And she came up with this crap excuse that really pissed me off. Saying that they had to go to this function for church and that she really didn't want to go and her son was torn about going because he wanted to go to my son's party. Blah blah blah.

Whatever!

I'm not done with this situation. During the phone call I didn't know what to say. But I can't let this go. It is bothering me enough that if we're as good of friends as I thought, then she needs to hear me out. She really hurt me.

It doesn't matter at this point where the friendship goes. Because if I don't say anything, then I'm going to just push her away. And if I do say something, then I may just push her away. Whatever.

I'm so tired of being crapped on.